04 February 2012
So Enthralled I Could Never Wander
My identity is still a mystery to me, but I suppose that's normal. I'm young but quite often I feel so old, as if life has passed me by and I've missed so much already. I was never a normal adolescent (whatever that is) and I feel a twinge of pain in my heart when I realise I was never much of a child either.
I've always found it hard to concilliate old friendships with new ones and sometimes I find myself loving isolation more than the fear of newness. This might explain why books have always been such a big part of me and my life. The best of always been so enthralled by books is that whenever I read one, I seem to find a bit more about myself and who I am - or might be.
I used to believe I would always be a city girl, wanting to live near all the luxuries and ammenities I'm so used to having, but today I realised that I don't actually need all of that. I just really need something I haven't quite found yet or am still too scare to admit I need. Maybe someday, when the time is right and I'm prepared. Maybe then.